Finally the worst has come, my life pillar had crashed a upon me.. Am i alone? I dono~ It seems so dark ard leaving me there? Has his heart left for her? Will he ever comes back to me? I dono!! From the start, i love this guy alot, loving him whole hearted.. Im sorry i made alot of mistake alot of things to anger euu but i reali didnt meant it.. Dunno why everytime i wanne do something nice and not anger euu i also did it the wrong way!! maybe all this is my doing thats why things end up like that now.. Trying my best to change but always change so little but seriously i reali put in alot of effort.. All i wanted was a simple and stable love from euu.. I guess no 1 in the world is gona to love him as much as i do.. Wad shld i do to stop the pain stop the tears from flowing.. stop the nitemare im having rite now? God~ wad shld i do? Is fate letting us be together? It hurts all over again to feel the pain in my shatter heart now.. Wishing that im dead rite now then i wont feel anything anymore!! Along i thot everything was fine after that time but was wrong things got worst, i guess i pissed him too!! HELP!! I reali was happi when i receive the msg of im willing to spend my life with u but it cant happen i tink it wont ever happen ler ba, its the matter of time i can still have him around sooner or later he will be gone with her ler~ *crys* Nthing gona to help anymore!! im breaking down reali soon~ By then dead numbness... Wad i have onli left is gone my soul r gone...

With ♥ From Suzanna [10:20 AM]